J. L. Petersen lives in Denver with her husband. She finds inspiration in her adopted state of Colorado and her belief love is the most powerful positive emotion we can experience.
Logan, the eldest of the MacBride clan, is thrilled at his brother Clay’s pending nuptials to Sandy. But when Sandy’s sister RJ arrives at the family’s ranch, Logan’s world is turned upside down.Â
However, the sisters’ shared past has created scars and barriers against love testing Logan’s ability to push aside his need and patience to win RJ’s trust and ultimately her unwavering love.
RJ ached for her sister. Sandy was always the starry-eyed sister. But she was hurt by how Sandy could have been going through this and never saying one word to her. She had to know. â€œWhy couldnâ€™t you talk to me about this?â€
â€œIâ€™ve struggled with how I was going to answer that,â€ Sandy said, holding up her hand to forestall RJ interrupting her. â€œI know I should tell you the truth but I think my truth will hurt you. I never want to hurt you.â€
â€œIâ€™d be more hurt with lies,â€ RJ told her. Sheâ€™d learned early to protect herself from the cruelties her family could dish out and instinctually threw up her emotional guards.
Sandy nodded. â€œAlright. I didnâ€™t want you to ruin it for me. I know you wouldnâ€™t see it that way but youâ€™re so against love and marriage, I just didnâ€™t want you to pop my bubble until I figured out what I felt and wanted.â€
RJ felt those comments like a physical blow. No barriers she could erect stood a chance against her sister thinking she would ruin her chance for happiness. She couldnâ€™t speak.
â€œOh, RJ! Donâ€™t cry. You never cry,â€ Sandy wailed when she saw the silent tears in her sisterâ€™s eyes. She started crying also as she grabbed her sisterâ€™s hands. â€œIâ€™m so sorry. Please, please donâ€™t cry.â€
RJ slowly pulled her hands free from her sisterâ€™s grasp. â€œWhy do you want me here, now?â€
â€œBecause I love you. I want you to share this with me. I know you want me happy. I just didnâ€™t want logic and family history to interfere. I wanted to understand, on my own.
RJ couldnâ€™t tell if she was breaking up inside or freezing up. Afraid she would break down in pain she stood. â€œSandy, I canâ€™t do this right now. Can I call you tomorrow morning?â€
â€œI thought we were going to spend the night together?â€ Knowing sheâ€™d hurt her sister crushed her.
â€œOkay,â€ she said standing, then wrapping her sisterâ€™s stiff body in a hug. â€œI love you.â€
Nodding, RJ strode away before she lost it. She didnâ€™t look back.